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inconsequence) wrote2016-11-16 10:30 pm
inconsequence) wrote2016-11-16 10:30 pm
cr chart.
 "You just wanted to see me suffer, didn't you?" ✘ - ✘ - ✘ - ✘ - ϟ - ⊗ - ∴ - 💔 - ✘ - ✘ - ✘ - ✘ [artist] | Floundering attempts at making some sort of sense Striving for significance In a universe that will not give a shit The myth of Sisyphus Authenticity is important, but I'm not sure who I am anymore I'm at the point now where I'm also doubting who I was before The arbitrary nature of thought leaves me alone and paranoid Synonyms for a void Nobody belongs, time brings invalidation. Find selfish solace in mutual trepidation The absurd condition of human existence A struggle to embrace I do not get the point that I am supposed to miss The passive submission or preferred resistance Just give me breathing space The meaning I used to find Overanalyzed, displaced Dispense your goals and actions into something trivial Pick apart pointless projects, my brain sings with vitriol I don't reflect, I destroy with thinking The examined life is not worth living Look at my sad life in detail and you'll see it is a comedy Sometimes I wish I was a goat |
| 💔 THE FALLEN CHILD 💔 There are souls that in their narrowness blame the whole world. But overwhelm such a soul with MERCY, give it love, and it will curse what it has done, for there are so many germs of good in it. |
| The first human to fall, and the catalyst of many, many things. As someone who unrepentantly and completely despises humanity, being human themself felt like the lowest insult, a great cosmic curse. Humans are selfish, callous, bitter, and cruel, and the most any of them can hope for is the possibility that their deaths may serve some sort of higher purpose. Giving their SOUL over to monsters, placing themself on the proverbial sacrificial pyre, was Chara's attempt to live up to everything they were meant to be; the future of humans and monsters. The angel who has seen the surface. They are no angel. Their plan went horribly awry. They ruined everything. And this proved something Chara had known all along: Humans really are awful. After witnessing the breaking of the barrier and the freeing of monsters through Frisk's eyes, Chara accepted that they would never repair the many, many things they ruined. The Dreemurrs are still separated, torn apart by their grief for the son Chara stole from them and committed to the dust. Frisk still had to suffer for the sins of their predecessors. And, most damning of all, Chara knew they were the last threat to everyone's happiness. Frisk and Asriel can have their happy ending. Chara has no right to take what they do not deserve. |
∴ home | ღ family | ♥ friend | ₪ from elsewhere | 〷 complicated | ✔ trusted | ||
| ✘ hatred | ∆ forgettable | ¿ uncertain | ★ acquaintance | ❖ warm acquaintance | ☒ keep watch | ||
| ⚑ afraid | ϟ threat | ⟲ knows of powers | 💔 kill | ⊗ be killed | ❱ avoidance |
❤ dragon age ❤
inquisitor lavellan ♥ dragon age
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[artist]
This is just another sad song
I can't deny that I've been needing one
And that the world is always at fault
And we did nothing, how did we do wrong
And I've been thinking that when we thought
The world would break us out we weren't wrong
But it's just never been the world outside
And sonder kind of has me terrified
And I'm so sorry I can't find the time
Spend all my days over-preoccupied
And I've been thinking 'bout how I'd react
If you were me and I was ghosted out
And I know I should try more
But I've been so caught in my own small shit
That I can't see
Past the nothing around me
But I've been trying really fucking hard not to try so hard
Really fucking hard just to let go
Really fucking hard not to try so hard
Realize I've nowhere left to go
Try to love someone who you want to hate, because they are just like you, somewhere inside, in a way you may never expect, in a way that resounds so deeply within you that you cannot believe it.
Initially little more than a vague mutual acquaintance, met via a shared employer at Normandy Securities, Inquisitor Lavellan cemented himself as a man of poor planning when he elected to go up against the Savrii intermediaries despite Chara's multiple and well-founded warnings. He unequivocally did it for the sake of Commander Shepard, which remains the sole foundation on which they can agree: that she deserves far better than she has been given, by the Savrii or anyone else.
After the intermediaries' frequent and unnerving dealings with him, Lavellan emerged a far less self-assured and insufferable individual, which was simultaneously more alarming and altogether terrifying than Chara was willing to admit, even to themself. Brought into frequent collusion, their disdain has become a difficult thing to maintain in the wake of just how broken he has become.
The two share more common ground than either are remotely aware of, which is perhaps why their relationship has been so tumultuous; it is, after all, easiest to hate that which you see in a mirror.
In recent days, he has given them a length of gold-tinted rope. Perhaps they will be kind enough to do something with it.